Realization

Domo!

Today, I was hit with a stern realization. I talk all the time how I want to be a game concept designer yet I find myself buying expensive equipment and spending hours on end making YouTube videos - videos which may not be doing very well.

Fair enough.
I've decided to take my friend's advice and do voice over commentaries starting with the next video.
I have not wanted to let the real me be known so this is very difficult for me. Yes, the truth is, I am rather shy. But I will try to do better.

In any case, I have decided to put my focus back into illustration - which I have been doing for a very long time. I need to improve and move forward. Need to reach my dreams of better quality illustration and design. Compromises are not what I set out for - a YouTube channel linked with Nintendo's program isn't being a Nintendo employee.

Oh yes. This is the recent product of my labors.

(I'm a way from my computer/scanner, sorry)

My friend who makes figures gave me a scolding since I haven't made a new design for him to do in months. I'm trying something a little new. When my Wacom bamboo finally comes in, I'll be able to do a proper illustration of this.


The feeling is heavy. I haven't failed at YouTube, but it is a distraction.  Even if I have the ability to do many things, if I can't focus on one or two, I won't do anything right. I think Danny Choo hit that point up sometime. I remember reading such an entry in his Desk Diary series - a series which I love to read. I do too many things. I do illustrations, manga, music, videos, games, tech, graphic design, news - too many! I need to focus on a few things at a time. I can't be 7 people. I remember saying once when I was younger that  I wish I lived 3 simultaneous lives. In one life, I'd be a Navy SEAL. In another, a professional baseball player. And in the other, a pro skater or something. Crashed and burned on that skating dream too. I call my 5 years of SOCOM gaming my "Navy career" (delusional.) And baseball isn't so hot where I live.

So it's time for me to focus. It's time to pic up my pencil and pens again with great ideas in hand. Consume more Bible, more Yamashita Shunya (how does that work out?), more of Toriyama sensei's work. More CREATIVITY. Making videos for YouTube is fun, but I have other callings to pursue - priorities.

Thanks Jed Hurricane. Spot time: Check out his feed on Twitch. He draws quite often last I saw.
He's a beast whether he admits it or not.

Okay!
Also saw this epic illustration by Larva Graphics in MS Excel!!!

Here's the link to the tweet I sent where you can get another link to the video (like taking the bus!)
https://twitter.com/beaniedude114/status/697787057356165120
I think this tweet was retweeted by Mr Ono and Twitter Gaming but I don't know what happened. Oh well.

I've used the term 'friend' a lot today. Funny because not too long ago I was making so many claims about being lonely. Oh well. 笑

Yesterday's tree image

So today, I've decided to draw more. I will still play games of course. I'm on Monster Hunter 4 U now. I just started but better late than never, right? Anyway, I'll be going now. I have a Japanese class to prepare.


What's your turning point today? Are today's activities worth it?
Bye bye!